Who do you please?

Who are we supposed to please? Whose voice do we listen to? Whose opinion really matters?

The past 3 weeks have been bittersweet for me working in the church. On one hand, I'm having a lot of fun doing the things I've got a passion for and dreaming up ideas for the church. On the other hand, I feel like I'm being held back and restricted from going on in a lot of things. It seems like there is always the concern of what people might say or what people might think; there's always the concern of offending people.

It's been a time of training for me and the Lord is really teaching me submission, patience and more submission. He's also teaching me to look at an even BIGGER picture of what's happening around the church. I've always seen myself as a person who looks to the future and looks at the big picture. But the Lord is saying, Hey! There's a bigger picture for you to see .. there are more things to consider than you thought there were. Operating and running a church is not as easy as you thought!

Well, I guess I'm also starting to REALLY learn the lesson I've always tried to impart to other people. You don't have to satisfy everybody and make everybody happy - you just need to fulfill your responsibility and have your conscience clear before God.

I'm learning it the hard way now. It seems like EVERYONE has something to say about my job and how I should do it. Everyone thinks they know what's best for me. I was actually really hurt today when one of my respected leaders said," What have you done the past 3 weeks working in church, do you have anything to show for it?"

Well, the line between who's right and who's wrong is starting to gray ....

..... but tonight during prayer meeting, the Lord spoke again. With the same song He touched me with when I was considering full time ministry, telling him I'll do whatever He wants me to do ( My Life is on the Altar )The same words spoke to me, but this time another phrase shot straight into my heart -

"Nothing matters when You're here with me
In the end just to hear You say "Well done"
Bowing before your throne"

Yes that's it! Nothing matters when God is with me. No one's opinion matters more than what God thinks. Who cares which leader praises me, who cares if "other people" think I've done a good job. In the end, I just wanna hear my FATHER GOD say "WELL DONE" That's all that matters to me. REALLY.

Thank you God for the reassurance. My greatest honor with always be to serve my Lord and King.

Passion of Work

Wow, it's been so long since my last entry. Been really busy at work and seriously, I didn't expect to be this busy ... haha ...

Well, lots of exciting things happening and visions being shared.:)

The church just got a new back drop for the sanctuary stage and I'm sitting in my office now having just pulled an all-nighter putting everything back on stage and trying very hard to make the stage tidy - to match the very elegant backdrop.

I'm so tired now - but most importantly, I'm happy and I enjoy my job so much!

I guess although I love the job, I really do feel the pressure of the job. Given the circumstances and the relationships I share with people in the church, I'm under pressure to not only perform, but to perform OUTSTANDINGLY.

I seriously don't know how to explain it. Deep in my heart I really really have a deep passion for my job and a passion for excellence for the church, but at the same time, I'm conscious that there are lots of people in the church (both "supporters" and "non-supporters") whose eyes are on me to see what results I'll produce for the church. I'm praying my passion for excellence will outshine any expectations on me - even my own expectations. I am working not for the church - I am working for God - so people's expectations do not matter - only God's expectations matter.

Most importantly however, there is one thing I know for sure - it is my God who has put me where I am now. If there is anyone who will support me all the way, encourage me and give me the wisdom and anointing to face my job, it is my God. So if my God is for me, WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME?

In Christ there is love, and perfect love casts out all fear! :) Wow, I guess Sunday did help! :)

Well, time to get some rest and get ready for a new day!

Work!

Well, surprisingly there's nothing much to blog about during my first week at work. Everything's going really well and there're lots of interesting people to meet and things to do.

It feels pretty good having my own office and actually, this being my first week at work, I've already met up with 4 vendors in 2 days! So it's quite fun! :)

People are fun too. I think it's really very different from the old church office. I feel happier when I enter the office now. :)

Just thought I'd give an update. :)