Accomplishment

It's been a busy day .. but I feel like I've achieved a lot ...

Going through a period now where people might be misunderstanding me .... cos of sch, i cant spend as much time at work .. but oh well ... I think I'm doing pretty ok .. just picking up the momentum to do better at my work .. :)

Thank God - I will be excellent in what I do!!

Is it really just the Chinese culture?

I just finished a major project at work.

Honestly, I think I did a good job - not a perfect job, not the best that can be, but still a pretty good job.

But I'm not happy.

Maybe it's just me, maybe I expect too much, but instead of getting a pat on my back, it was announced in front of everyone that "we have not done a good job, there are many areas that we could have improved, please forgive us for any shortcomings."

After the project, everyone was tired - I got back to office the past few days, all pple wanted were to close accounts, "find out which areas can be improved" .... Did I really do so terribly?

There was a lot of stress before the project - my colleagues did cover up my shortcomings; there was a lot of stress during the project - I felt my colleagues & superiors were not there when I needed them during the project; the stress is over after the project - I'm human, I need a pat, just a gentle pat. Instead of a pat, I'm all alone, like a pet abandoned after the circus show is over ...

But no ... I did everything wrong - I did the wrong things, said the wrong things, controlled my emotions wrong, drove the wrong way .. every thing's wrong - but hey, THAT'S NOT TRUE!

Is my attitude wrong? I am but human ...

Maybe at the end of the day, all I need is God to say "Well done." Is this what it means to pursue the recognition of God & not of man? I've been trying to have the right attitude and motives all this time - have I got it all wrong??

I know He wants me to go further .. to do something greater for Him - but is this the avenue? I'll ask Him.

Living in His promises

Ever wondered how unpredictable life can be?
Ever wondered how the things we expect don't happen?
Ever wonder how come God's promises don't work out the way we expect them to?
Ever wondered why we call Him God and yet we expect Him to do things the way we would do them?

Ever realized how every time you're sure you got a promise from God, He'll test your faith?

Ever realized how something will be taken from you before something greater is given to you?

Faith & Fear cannot co-exist - in the same way, Harvesting cannot exist without sowing - we have to give up something to get something.

Trust Him! Only He knows what's best for you!

Had a great birthday!!

Had a Great Birthday yesterday - it was really, honestly, sincerely MUCH better than I thought it would be. :)

Celebrated with some new friends I got to know on a mission trip to Kedah - these are GREAT friends & yes, I just might write about them soon. :)

We had lunch at Seoul Garden - some of you might cringe at the idea of Seoul Garden for a birthday, but hey, I LOVE MEAT!! They suddenly gave me a GIGANTIC (to me) Winnie the Pooh soft toy. HAHA .... I used to think I would drop dead if someone gave me a soft toy for my Bday, but you know what? I GENUINELY LIKED IT ALOT. I don't know why .. haha .. *but ah, my car not very big, so if I keep it in there, like a lot of space taken up leh ... oh well .. :)*

After that, had the customary "Waiters bring you a surprise cake" thing there .. I think it was one of the first time I experienced it and it made me feel "warm" .. :)

Then RUSHED back to office cos I had tons of stuff waiting for me to do, but instead of asking me to "DO STUFF", the office pple were just waiting to celebrate my birthday .. haha .. you know, it feels good when pple put you ahead of work. :)

Something really funny happened - one of my SOT team mates smsed me saying something like "Sorry forgot to celebrate your Bday today" .. then suddenly a WHOLE stream of sms from my team suddenly came in. :) hahaha .. must be someone sent an "emergency sms" to remind everyone in the team. :)

Anyway, my SOT team was really really sweet today - they bought a cake and sang CHC's famous Happy Birthday WOOOOOOHHH song ... but the best thing was, they made one of nicest card I have received for my Bday ... :) It's REALLY REALLY NICE!! :) Can see much effort and attention was put into it ... :)


Having said SO much ... I'm surprised, cos the pple who celebrated my Bday this year were pple I got to know within the last 2 mths. Most of my "real" friends just sent me the obligatory birthday SMS.

You know it makes me wonder, do people start taking relationships for granted after a long period of familiarity ... it's actually really sad ... oh well .. :)

The only "old" friend who really remembered my Bday was David Tan who sent me an email from Australia .. haha ... Good old David ... :)

Oh, and I MUST mention Salome - she was under a lot of pressure to let me have a great Birthday. Salome, if you're reading this, I wanna say it again, I HAD A GREAT BIRTHDAY 2008! Thank you and I love you! :)

Back with great enthusiasm!

Wow! It's been more than 6 months since my last post!! Didn't think it was such a long time till I saw the date of my last post.

What can I say? I've still got a great job!! HAHA .. Well, I'm now into my 9th month of working in BPC - experienced some ups & downs .... in fact, I'm kinda going through a period of "down" now, but it's kinda like riding a roller-coaster - when you're almost nearing the lowest part, that's when you brace yourself for a sudden upward plunge!

I guess that kinda sums up the season I'm in now. I'm bracing myself for an upward plunge, and I know that this plunge will take me much higher from where I came from! :)

So what's happening in my life now?

I started studying at the City Harvest Bible Training Centre in March this year - it'll last all the way till Aug 24th which is my Graduation Day!! After which I will receive my Certificate in Theology. :)

The church is sponsoring my studies, which means of course that while I'm studying, I'm also working in the church! :)

AND, to "supplement" my income, I'm also teaching Guitar and Bass on my "off days" and after office hours. hee hee .... with my supplementary income and God's gracious providence, I'm able to rent a car from a friend long term.

Yes I "own" a car now and the feeling is great!! I'm just afraid how uneasy I'll be after I return it .. :)

Well, that just about sums up what's happening in my life now.


You know what, I forgot the joy of blogging - it seems now that once I start writing, I've got so many things to say! It might just be the momentum of writing - I just finished writing a 1700 word essay for school yesterday. :) You know what I LOVE WRITING!!!! :)